December Schedule and News (Pixiv Fanbox)

Hey! How's it going? I'm not dead! Nor have I given up. Remember that I can't leave here and that I'm going to stay here and keep uploading content forever (until I die and all that's left of me are red roses that use my corpse as fertilizer, and that's my immortality, like in Edvard Munch's poem “From My Rotting Body,” since I can't turn myself into a doll :v ), although being red roses or being a doll wouldn't be very different in the Inaverse (because of how the transformation into a doll with fuchsia liquid works and how dolls feed on the light that reflects on their skin). But I don't think I'll die soon, I don't suffer from any serious illness (yet) and several of the usual ravages are due to my bad sleeping and eating habits (which we are constantly trying to resolve). You may be wondering why there is another week's delay this time when I said it wouldn't happen again, but this time it's not an accidental delay due to a backlog of content to avoid, but rather a premeditated and planned delay of sorts. What happened is that before I started publishing the current comic (the 13-page Christmas comic), I wanted to publish the two pending novels for the $10 tier (10 pages each, although currently it could be considered a 20-page novel) to avoid leaving the matter for later, and if I ended up doing the 20-page novel, I think it would be anticlimactic to publish it in the middle of the Christmas comic, which has no connection to the monthly 10-page novel. So, to maintain order and force myself in a way, since I consider it important to fulfill the $10 tier reward (Royal Librarian), both because it is an alternative to increase our profits and better combat the incipient devaluation of the dollar (and for it to work, in a business where everything is about credibility and trust that we will always fulfill our obligations to tiers and customers, by delaying the publication of the November novel for that tier, I had to take radical measures to force myself to write the 10 pending pages and the 10 pages for December). On the other hand, I consider fulfilling those 10 pages of written novel as a commitment to myself as a writer. Not fulfilling that commitment worsened my emotional and mental state, and I couldn't allow myself to fail in this way, as those 10-page novels serve as a blank canvas for several of my ideas and pending narrative lore that, in order to fulfill our commission obligations to our clients, have often been left on the sidelines for years. Not everything in life is about money; I must also fulfill my various roles as an artist (although honestly, right now I do need money, and a lot of it, more because these chaotic issues and days of delays on Patreon, added to the accumulation of pending tasks, have seriously damaged our subscriber base, especially considering that this Patreon was generating $1,200 a month a few months ago and now I find myself on the ropes, earning $800-900 and greatly complicating the viability of my survival (which I have maintained by saturating commissions for the entire next year, something that can no longer continue as I have already saturated the schedule not only of our staff graphic artist, but also of three new assistant graphic artists to fulfill all of next year's commitments Now, anyone on the Discord server has witnessed my effort to finish (and my most recent descent into madness, of the several descents into madness I have had this year) by writing a 20-page novel in one sitting. It is not the first time I have done this, but given my current circumstances (lately I can't stay awake for more than 3 hours without feeling sleepy), it became especially difficult, so I did everything I could to stay awake and induce insomnia, which allowed me to finish that novel in 4 days in an intense rhapsody of self-loathing. Even so, I decided to continue pausing automatic content publications until this Friday (when I published the two extra comic pages from Sunday and the first page of the 13-page Christmas work on Discord (that is, I didn't resume the flow of content until I finished that pending work and was truly satisfied with what I had done (and after a couple of days' rest due to exhaustion). In addition, as a result of this fatigue from these scheduling and organizational situations with my time that are negatively affecting everything (and especially this project), I decided to take the bull by the horns. At first, my idea was to finish the 20 pages of text between the 1st and 2nd, but when I made the drawing instructions for December 1st, I decided to hyperfocus on the 1st and 2nd to write all the instructions for the month with the three graphic artists from whom we received content (the main one, the first assistant/coriron, the second assistant, and an external artist), which would take away one daily task and one less distraction (in addition to the fact that I had already edited and scheduled all the content for the next two and a half months, yes, the same content that I voluntarily delayed publishing this week...). So we could define my long to-do list as follows: -Edit and schedule all pending content while continuing to edit and schedule the content that is produced daily (done) -Instructions one month in advance (done) -Pending writing of $20 tier novels for November and December (done) -Excel checklist of Discord subscribers on Patreon/Fanbox (done) -Publish the December Schedule and resume the flow of publications (done at the same time we are publishing), including the 20-page $10 tier novel and the extra work. -Publish all pending content on DA/Pixiv/Fanbox (pending), today I will publish last Sunday's extra work, but the rest will have to wait until Monday as I need to rest, I am very physically tired right now, with periods of intense nodding off, but where the fervent and violent desire to fulfill my obligations keeps me going. -Write pending short stories (pending to be done during the second and third week of December when I have more time). Now, despite having sold all of this year's commissions, due to this month's low earnings given the irregularities I've had with Patreon (even though they are minor, there are people who are unsympathetic and decide to leave, and by not publishing fresh content externally, new people are not attracted to fill those empty spaces), I will open 8 slots of 5 pages each (i.e., 40 pages) as extra content, but in the first months of 2027 (since there is no longer any physically possible way to open more slots in 2026), so I eagerly await someone interested in helping me with this situation by commissioning something (it could be 8 people commissioning a 5-page comic each for $150 USD, or a single person commissioning everything for $1200 USD). Now, finally and most importantly, as a way of thinking about and reflecting on the future of this project, I believe that writing that 20-page novel violently rekindled that fire inside me that was beginning to fade. Just one month ago, On November 4, we celebrated five years since starting this project (there will be an extra commemorative work for the first novel in January 2026), and I never thought we would get this far, although I know we could have gone even further if I hadn't been so disorganized lately. I can't deny my part in that, and perhaps I can't entirely deny that part of it is due to my ADHD, but it would be very irresponsible to blame my neurodivergent condition when I finished a university degree and have been able to live as a responsible human being despite my disorder, only to now make it the culprit for everything. But things aren't like that, they can't be like that, and in fact, on the contrary, much of my creative process (something positive) comes more from that condition than from my organizational problems. Now, I am firmly convinced that this project can achieve much more if organization and discipline are strictly reintroduced and everything and more is accomplished. I have often said that as the writer, I am the captain of this ship and that the captain sinks with her ship, but I don't say this in a victimizing sense; I say it in a sense of highlighting the relationship that this project is my life. Several years ago, five years ago, the pandemic and bad decisions destroyed my life and everything I had done, and this project gave me a chance to live again, to feel proud of what I do again, and to make a living doing something I enjoy. I'm not here just for the money. The fetish of transforming people into dolls is my passion and my life (something I've always known but put on the back burner to try to develop another kind of life that never worked out). I enjoy being the doll (the passive part) as much as being the perpetrator (the active part). Many dolls are even dressed in dresses or cosplay that I own or wear, and on better days (when I wasn't paying rent), I commissioned hypnosis audios that immersed me in the fantasy of being a doll. For me, this is everything, and it is something I love and enjoy, but at the same time, it also became a way to finance my survival and that of my main graphic artist (who uses the pseudonym “hestiaLV” informally for the purposes of this project; he is the one with whom I started this project, and he will continue here as long as he wants to; I would never replace him with another graphic artist as long as he doesn't want to leave and he is happy here too, although if one day he were not here, I would stay here and have to figure out how to continue with this project. That's what I mean by “I am the captain of the ship and I will sink with it if necessary,” not out of victimhood, but rather like a queen who leads her armies and whose life is linked to the survival and success of her kingdom, not because my existence and future are entirely linked to this project, and it is a project that I believe should aspire to greatness and expand in size and effect, so my goal is: -to intensively promote our Patreon/Fanbox (from today until at least December 24) so that we can increase and expand our revenue. Only then will I be able to get out of these situations where I have to mortgage future commissions to live today. My goal is to increase Patreon earnings to at least $1,500 USD. I don't know if I can achieve this, but I have nothing to lose by trying . Increasing earnings to $1,500 USD per month will help me reinvest profits in more commissions and double the amount of content we produce. If we already produce around 25 to 30 comic pages, we could increase that to 40-45 pages. This is because our regular graphic artist's 2026 schedule is full of commissions, which led me to look for assistant graphic artists to: -The second assistant artist will do artwork for some regular clients (commissions from other clients who commissioned monthly and, upon accepting work for many months ahead with the regular artist, had been left out), after negotiating with some specific ones -create the monthly 5-page fanfic/original story, which for at least this year will be content made with another artist (the third assistant artist) -continuation of the two pages of monthly extra content of doll TF/figurine TF with Coriron (the first assistant artist), as it has been well received, all while maintaining the usual commissions from Revan and Taru. -We also believe that all this art (I will attach the graphic art work schedule so you can see that what I am saying is true) will diversify all our content, keeping more people interested in maintaining their subscription and attracting new people or bringing back people who left. Do you like TF figurines? We have them. Do you like TF sex dolls? We have them. Inflatables/balloons? We have those too. We even have the occasional furry commission mixed in with some TF here and there. We have everything, or almost everything, and that will be the idea. Even if you like my original content (the longer novels that not only have some TF but also have a narrative development and broader world-building), we will continue to do that for the $10 tier, but we need your help with your subscription. Sincerely. Ina.