korea update #2 (Patreon)

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ok SOOOOO the last two days have been kinda 😅 for me

the color analysis was aiightttt i think it just reinforces what i naturally am drawn towards so im excited for that video and to show you guys the results! the most surprising thing was that my makeup colors are apparently all wrong OOP lol and ive been doing it wrong alll my life DOUBLE OOP

i went to my first skin appointment today and it about met my expectations; they don’t know why my skin is this way. they have some ideas that are basically the same as mine so it was disappointing but also just reinforced something that i feel like i already knew which is it’s up to me to figure out what it is and welp there’s just not a doctor that gets it

he did recommend some procedures to help fix my current skin because he says i have a lot of scarring, inflammation, and redness. he recommended 2 lasers and 1 skin booster. i was so scared of getting another laser done tho bc the two times ive gotten laser done in the past, i have had terrrribleee reactions (which i told him) and he was like nah im not worried

but like …. IDK MAN I DONT TRUST DOCTORS THEY DONT GIVE A FUCK

the last time i had a reaction to the lasers the doctor just stopped replying to our email thread and brushed me off >:( idk im just over it

so today i got a laser done bc he reassured me and so far so good

tmr i go back for the rest and he wanted to put me on laughing gas for the pain and i was like uhhhh im in korea alone are you sure thats wise and he’s like ya you’ll be fine but ??? IDK THAT DOESNT SEEM FINE

it just makes me sad bc it feels like no one cares and all i wanna do is have nice skin but also be safe

i’m feeling rather defeated but also just hopeful that these treatments will allow me to experience nice skin eventually

and like.. no laughing gas bro ??? tf

welp, gnighttttt 💫