monthly blog post: january 🌨️ (Patreon)

hi everyone, i hope youre doing well :) i know its already half way through February so please forgive me for the late blog, next months will be right on time :D also i didnt nothing this month so this is one of the 3 photos i took lol

january favorites 

book: i havent finished it yet but ATOMIC HABITS BY JAMES CLEAR!!! like so far i am LOVIN IT

skincare product: OBSESSED with the I'm from Rice Toner Pads. obsessed i tell you, SO hydrating

body care: lowkey, the 4 Way Nail Buffer Block things bc im not gettin my nails done anymore and so the natural shine is sooo nice

makeup product: Aztk Liquid Blush!!!!!!! in the color JC02. fav cool tone light pink E V E R

snack: RICE CAKES

song: flight attendant by josh rouse

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january thoughts: 

i swear january is my hardest month? like i remember last year i was goin through mental battles and then this year, the same thing happened. but i dont think seasonal depression exists in california so LOL my other theory is that its after i visit home for the holidays and then once i get back here, life is dull again

i looked through my camera roll to refresh my mind on what the hell even happened this month and guys... i think i quite literally did nothing HAHA

i competed in twitch rivals / went to shrouds house and then went to 1 studio opening party. oop

my life feels like it is lowkey on hold until i move to washington but im also trying to make the best of it and enjoy the sunshine that LA has

something that has been on my mind lately is that i LACK PURPOSE

i think i am itching for a new chapter! a new THING to do or pursue but i dont really know where to start bleh like after recording the xmas album songs i kinda wanna try and make a jazz album of all covers or something but i have no idea how to do that so instead of doing anything about it i do nothing tee hee he he hehehe,s.liiajsoidhwa

on another tangent, i have a 'feelings glossary' where i write down a feeling and the sensation associated with that feeling (only positive emotions) and using that knowledge as an anchor to then imagine myself in new scenarios / manifest my future and !!! idk my brain has been loving it

theres a term for it but its escaping me right now >< i think having it be rooted in sensations that i have 100% felt before helps so much and overall makes me happier like my little brain is feeling better from the practice

i started doing this more often bc i noticed that the things that normally might make me happy or fulfilled were just... uhhh making me feel nothing? like i would come home from hanging with people and be like eh whatever

and i knew then that i just needed to try and switch something up bc wth is that

WE ARE NOTHING IF NOT RESILIENT ! ! !

well i hope your january was a good start to your year and that this year is just going to get better and better each month

see you soon for the next blog <3