monthly blog post: may 🤧 (Patreon)

may favorites 

book: i ..................... have not been a reader lately ..... its bad

skincare product: been trying out the Paula's Choice Pro-Collagen Peptide Plumping Moisturizer and ive been converted

body care: Eos vanilla cashmere body lotion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! got my mom hooked as well. smells SO good and is so hydrating and not sticky i love it

makeup product: no new favorites bc im using all the same products heheal

snack: BEEN EATING TOO MANY OF THESE BUT THEYRE SO NICE WHEN IM CRAVING SOMETHING SWEET Sweet Loren's Less Sugar Cookie Dough!!!! i make them in the air fryer for 8mins at 325

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may thoughts: 

YALL I HAVE BEEN SO OUT OF IT LATELY LIKE going to edc and then getting sick i genuinely have lost track of the days. for example, i have my food plan and it gets delivered every morning and ive completely wasted 2 days bc i thought it was a weekend so i didnt grab the food from the front door (it doesnt get delivered on the weekends)

idk if that makes sense but basically i have been the most out of it ive ever been LOL like i generally feel -aware- but DEAR LORD IM STRUGGLING

im pretty sad because getting sick after edc (WITH THE LONGEST SICKNESS IVE EVER EXPERIENCED EXCEPT COVD??) really fucked with my gym regimen!!

so my overall feelings towards myself have not been great but its been kinda interesting to flex my compassion muscle for myself and give myself the patience to get back into the groove

also, its been really nice bc im sure yall can sense the energy shift with OTV and that makes me so so happy to feel the energy change and be UP!!!

ive also just been getting back into collabs as well recently

idk i feel like ive been hibernating / hiding for years LOL

TLDR, i think dynamics that occurred in my early days of streaming had scared me from collabing and pushed me to be in my comfort zone + isolate a little BUT i wouldnt have had it any other way like i learned a lot so im thankful for the experience buuttttt now im trying to push a little past my comfort zone and get out there and collab with ppl and thats really exciting and new to me :3

so may was all about recovery and regrowth LOL and now i hope june is about finding regimen again and pushing content!!!!

sorry again for the late blog post, im LOST

LOVE YALL, SENDING YOU POSITIVE ENERGY <3