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Jason stepped through the portal into the long savannah grass around Tera Jun Casta’s remote villa. Tera looked at him from the porch, taking him in as he did the same. The wings she had been so proud of as a messenger were nowhere to be seen. Her clothes were a simple blouse and pants in the human style, although fitted for a nine-foot-tall woman. She was standing on the wooden porch in bare feet, not floating over it. Her eyes looked at him with the same old hatred he remembered.

The rest of her body language was less wary. In the past, she’d always been guarded and ready to strike, as if waiting for him to spring some trap. Now there was an uncertainty to her, as if unsure whether to stride forward and confront him or turn and leave. She chose the latter, moving inside without a word. Jason felt the emotions warring within her aura, even more conflicted than her appearance.

Boris walked over as the portal closed behind Jason.

“I’m going to ask you to avoid your usual charm,” the messenger said. “We both know it’s not for everyone, and she tops the list of people it isn’t for. Normally, I wouldn’t make a point of it, but—”

“She, of all people, deserves to be spared.”

Boris nodded. His own outgoing personality was likewise being kept in check.

“How is she doing?” Jason asked. “I was a little surprised when I heard that she’d gone seeking out the Unorthodoxy.”

“It took her a long time to come to terms with what our kind truly are. Cracking indoctrination is never easy or clean. When her faith in the astral kings finally broke, it broke hard. She almost broke with it.”

“Especially after what I did to her, I imagine.”

“Possibly, I don’t know. I’ve seen soul torture but never experienced it. It seems like something you can’t truly understand without experiencing it.”

Jason nodded his acknowledgement of the point.

“She’s a woman of absolute conviction,” Boris continued, “and that conviction took a lot to break. When it did, it was an ugly thing, according to Jali Corrik Fen. It was good that Tera had a friend to rely on, or she might not still be with us. But she isn’t built to let things go, and her passion for the Messenger Orthodoxy didn’t go away. It went from fervent obedience to blinding fury. That was when she sought me out, looking to join the Unorthodoxy.”

“There’s no zealot like a convert.”

“Certainly not this convert. But while her feelings on the Orthodoxy are clear, things are more complicated when it comes to you.”

“That’s understandable.”

“I’m concerned about what you’re here for, Jason. If this is for some kind of atonement or reconciliation, I’m going to ask you to turn around and go home. That would be for you, and it’s not what she needs.”

“No, Boris. This is something else. Something that what Tera has been through makes her uniquely qualified for.”

“Jason, I don’t like the sound of that.”

Jason smiled.

“And I’m glad that you’re looking to the wellbeing of someone who once hated everything you stand for. But I don’t need your permission, Boris. You know that I support the Unorthodoxy, and that I will be willing to act in their interests when I can. But I’m also going to do things that, while not going against your interests, won’t be in aid of them, when they easily could.”

Boris narrowed his eyes.

“So, that’s what you want. Someone to rehabilitate all the messengers Jamis Fran Muskar surrendered to you.”

“Yes.”

“You realise that asking a newly radicalised Unorthodoxy zealot to not lead them to the Unorthodoxy is an odd choice, right?”

“I think that the most valuable thing Tera has gained from her experiences is the power to make choices for herself. I’m betting on her respecting that. I have no doubt that she’ll play recruitment officer for you, probably with some success. But it has to be their choice, at a stage where they are competent to make it. If they want to fight against the people that enslaved them, I understand that, and I respect it. But if they instead want to put your war behind them and find some measure of peace, I understand and respect that to. As will you.”

“I’m not looking to force anyone into a war, Jason. I’ve told you that before.”

“I know. But I also I know where good intentions can lead you, and how biases can affect you without you realising it. You have billions of years of experience, Boris. Do those things ever change?”

“No. For all my years, I move through life one day at a time, just like everyone else.”

Jason nodded.

“I know it sounds like I’m accusing you, Boris. The truth is, I worry about myself more. I asked you here to help keep me straight as I approach this. I’ve already hurt Tera enough.”

“Before we go in, can I ask you something?”

“What?”

“You’ve had the surrendered messengers for some time now, right? Months?”

“Yes. You want to know what I’ve been doing with them?”

“I do.”

“I have a prison planet. Their astral kings can’t control them while they’re in my astral kingdom. The messengers still have the marks of their old kings, though. I didn’t want to remove them until I have programs in place to help them through the ordeal. But that is something best discussed with Tera and Jali.”

“Shall we go inside, then?”

“Let’s,” Jason said, turning to look over the villa. The design was long and low, built from wood and stone that felt completely in keeping with the savannah around it.

“What is this place?” he asked. “It’s lovely.”

“The Unorthodoxy maintains a lot of places like this within our territories. Our design philosophy is largely reactive to that of the orthodox messengers. Where they like ostentatious fortress towns and soaring spires, we go for small, low-slung and blending into the environment. Tera wanted solitude, and this fit the bill.”

Jason took a steeling breath and set out for the building.

***

Jack Gerling was not a good fighter, nor an expert in using his essence abilities. He wasn’t even alive, being a soul trapped in a sequence of blood clones. The clones degraded over time as Gerling’s soul struggled to escape into the sweet release of death, growing more tormented with each passing year. As an enslaved clone, his soul trapped in a living prison, he could do nothing but obey.

One of the reasons Gerling had never learned to fight very well was that his explosion powers were intuitive and effective. He used only a handful of his essence abilities for almost every problem and ignored the rest. Ranking up with monster cores meant that he never needed to bother with them.

This was as true now as it had been in life. Part of a trio being chased down a tunnel, he was the rearguard, blasting back each silver-rank pursuer who caught up. Gravity magic was slowing down the gold-rankers, who would otherwise be unfussed by even large groups of silver-rankers. The only threat Gerling had ever faced from silvers was Jason Asano and Farrah Hurin. Even then, they had been helped and still lost.

Being deep inside an alpine mountain, trying to blast out of the tunnel would only bring it down on their heads. They could only rush for the blast door and hope it didn’t take too long to break open.

Ahead of him was his mistress, the vampire queen Elizabeth, and Marie Finnegan, the recently expelled director of the Zurich Network branch. All three were rendered sluggish by the enhanced gravity, while their pursuers were unaffected. What did affect them were explosive punches that ripped off limbs and cratered torsos. It wasn’t enough to kill them, but did slow them down. Especially the one who Gerling grabbed by the face before using the Explosive Palm power to scatter most of his head down the tunnel.

Elizabeth and Marie had made a few attempts to yell at one another as they fled, but the ongoing explosions behind them filled the tunnel with echoing thunder. The two women put on as much speed as they could under the extra weight until they neared the blast door leading out of the mountain. More defenders were waiting in front of it, and the pair shared a glance. They understood that if the Network had managed to get a gold-ranker onsite, their escape would be much harder. If it had gotten more than one, their escape was likely doomed.

The silver-rankers gathered in front of the now-closed blast door was a good sign that they were stalling until a gold-ranker could arrive. Gerling continued to cover their retreat as the women moved forward. Like Gerling, neither were gifted fighters, with Elizabeth being a manipulator and Marie being an investigator. Luckily, gold-rank covered a lot of sins, letting the trio slaughter the defenders and their pursuers both.

Like Gerling, Marie’s best attacks were close range. Where he created explosions with his fists, even her merest touch sent acid spreading through anything or anyone. Elizabeth’s approach was more hands-off as she summoned blood spiders over the walls and ceiling.

Dozens of fist-sized arachnids shot out jagged bone spikes, each trailing a thread of blood red silk. The barbed spikes warped as they struck, burrowing into muscle and bone. They would then get yanked out by the spiders, tearing off chunks of flesh with a wet ripping sound. One defender was struck so many times that he was torn to literal pieces, scattered across the tunnel.

Once the defenders were dead, Marie placed her hand on the thick, magically reinforced steel doors. Under her hand, the metal corroded in a slowly spreading circle. Gerling used the time to finish the remaining pursuers while Elizabeth turned her attention to the fresh corpses.

“Best not to waste all this high-ranking blood,” she said, then started waving her arms like an obviously fake hypnotist. The blood rose from the floor and was drained out of the bodies to float in the air. It gathered into a rapidly growing orb as contaminants were pushed out and dropped to the floor. More substantive detritus included scraps of clothing, loose fingers and an eyeball.

“That is disgusting,” Marie said as she worked. The explosions had finally ceased after the last pursuer died. The recovery power of gold-rankers meant they were not left with any lingering hearing impediment.

“I just watched you melt several people with acid,” Elizabeth pointed out.

“I didn’t make snacks out of them after.”

“You’re staring at the door,” Elizabeth pointed out. “You can’t even see what I’m doing.”

“We’ve spent enough time together that I can recognise concentrated blood, Elizabeth, and I can smell it. I can smell everything. These gold-rank senses are hard to rein in.”

“I’ll teach you some management techniques later,” Elizbeth said. “For now, concentrate on the door and block it out. It would have been better if you could just open it, the same as when we came in.”

“I didn’t expect Geneva to cancel my credentials this quickly.”

“It would have been nice if you’d realised your access had been revoked before we triggered the security measures.”

“I did warn you it would happen at some stage. Which, I’ll remind you, is why you said we should move up the timetable.”

“You implied that ‘at some stage’ meant after several days, not several hours. I am merely voicing my disappointment that it happened when we were already deep inside the facility.”

“Oh, I’m sorry. I should have told them to text me if they were going to pull my access to the reality core depository. I’m sure no one would have found that suspicious, coming from the person being kicked out for embezzling enough high-rank monster cores to reach gold.”

“If only you could have avoided getting caught doing that in the first place.”

“I’m not an expert thief, Elizabeth. And who convinced me to do it in the first place? Also, I wouldn’t have been caught, if not for that chotzbrocke. What kind of sadist appoints someone named Geneva as director of the Geneva branch anyway? Her ego was inflated enough already.”

“Focus,” Elizabeth told her.

“Oh, so you get to be passive aggressive, but I have to focus. Also, I’m done. The door is corroded through; have your minion knock on it.”

Marie had left a large circle in the door rusted and flaking. Elizabeth directed Gerling to hit it and an exploding fist punched a hole in the four-inch steel. The trio moved through, Elizabeth’s orb of blood bobbing along like a balloon. On the other side of the door was an artificial cave cut out of the mountainside. No roads or trails led to it, and it was hard to spot without knowing exactly where to look.

Inside the small cave was a handful of dead silver-rankers, on top of the one’s they’d killed while entering. The man responsible for the fresh bodies was waiting impatiently.

“About time,” Remy complained, even as he opened a portal. “If any gold-rankers turned up, I was just going to bail.”

Elizabeth cast a speculative glance over the fresh bodies.

“Don’t even think about it,” Remy said. “You stop for a drink and I’m leaving you behind.”

She looked at the portal.

“That doesn’t go directly to Simon’s lab, does it?” she asked. “Asano’s cohort may have the ability to trace portals.

“I’m always careful,” Remy said. “Especially with that guy.”

“History?” she asked.

“We don’t have time for this,” Marie said and ducked through the portal.

“She’s right,” Remy said. “Happy to explain once we’re far away from here.”

Elizabeth nodded her assent before stepping through, Gerling and her blood orb trailing like pets. As soon as she was through, Remy followed, and the portal shut behind him.

***

“And that’s the job,” Jason said. “I won’t be forcing my way into anyone’s soul. Their astral kings handed them over to me, the way they trade messengers amongst themselves. But instead of branding their souls with my own mark, they will be placing their own, the way I helped Jali to do. And forced you to do.”

Jason was sitting at a kitchen table with Tera, Boris and Jali Corrik Fen. Jali was caretaker of the messengers living with the Asano clan, as well as an old friend of Tera’s from their days of enslavement. Tera had listened to Jason’s story without comment or expression, but her aura was a calamity of emotions.

The other three waited in silence for Tera’s response.

“You said Jamis Fran Muskar surrendered the messengers to you.”

“It allowed him to send a message to the astral kings who were losing focus in the war,” Jason said. “It wasn’t out of fear.”

“Of course it wasn’t out of fear!” Tera snapped. “Jamis Fran Muskar is the king of kings! Why would he even speak to the likes of you.”

Jason didn’t react. He could sense Tera flailing, emotionally, using her old hatred of Jason as an anchor. She had already seen him as an impossibly dangerous foe in the past, and while her own power had climbed, she was still silver rank. He, by contrast, was a half-transcendent, and he had opened his aura for her to sense. His intention was to be open, but her reaction had made him think it was too much, too fast.

Jason got to his feet. Even standing, he was much shorter than the messengers who remained seated. The whole building was proportioned to messengers, making him feel like Jack at the top of the beanstalk. He didn’t like that thought, given that Jack was bit of a turd.

“I’m going to go,” he said. “Take some time to consider what I’ve said, and what I’ve asked. I think you can give them someone who understands what they’re going through, the way you never had. Talk it over with Boris and Jali. If you have any questions, I can come see you again, or you can pass them along.”

“Are you sorry for what you did to me?” Tera asked, stopping him as he started to turn away. He had spent a long time pondering that question.

“I don’t know,” he said. “I still don’t know if what I did to you was a cruelty or a mercy. It was probably both.”

He walked outside before opening a portal and stepping through.

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Comments

John goode

1st biscuits !

Arakrin

Assorted princess-catching pastries!

mhaj58

I’m surprised that there’s an unregulated gold ranker. Stealing gold rank cores and reality cores can’t be easy but Marie did both. I can’t wait for Jason to catch up to her

Soli116

That was really good. So many emotions. I need to reread this one a few times today just to take it all in.

Tom C

I hope Jason goes full hegemon on those fools. TFTC!

Aaron Schwartz

Why write it like this? Scene, stop in the middle of the scene. Full scene with a completely different character. Go back to the first scene like nothing happened, and finish that one off. Just have the two scenes be complete scenes and go one after the other

Vincent Torres

I can't wait for Jason to run into Gerling and show him what a real gold rank is like. Or better yet let Humphrey meet him and show how what a real Might essence user can do

AfroMocha

Tftc queen there better hope to god what she’s doing isn’t a threat to Jason’s family or friends. There is no world she can hide in. The other world will hunt her down for being her on principle and sight. And this world she has threaten with her damn farming. She had a chance to surrender to Jason and enjoy the sweet bliss of a free mind in his astral kingdom or spiritual realms but she woke up and chose violence. She will make a nice snack for Colin.

Mist Sparrow

Wouldn't Sophie be able to respond to pretty much any threat the moment they get notified of its location, unless the Geneva branch didn't call it in, or it's a trap of some kind (I don't think Remy can throw off Clive with some earth level magical countermeasure)

David

“Are you sorry for what you did to me?” Seriously? His other options were death or mutual death. I dislike Tera more than Anna or even the Earth politicians. He actually has the power to back his decisions up now, so chooses a new handicap of advisors who distrust and dislike him. What the hell is that?

David

No, he’ll be too busy offering him a new job like Anna and Tera.

TreeReader

Am i sorry for stopping you from killing me? I wouldn't have been sorry for her lol

Iain Grubb

Ah that damn French network traitor with his portal powers snaking people away again, doubt he will dump anyone at the bottom of Kakadu this time though. What I really would like an update on is the carjacking newborn messengers and how they have progressed since arriving on Earth what 18-19 years ago?

Iain Grubb

Sounds like she was head of accounting, just a few rounding errors in the tally. Whoops I don't know how I made Gold

Timothy

I see it sort of like a drama on the TV, switching from view to another view to span time. Depends on how your brain works as you read, I guess. TYFTC, Shirt!

Kevin Anderson

Eh, in a universe where the soul endures, there are worse things than death it sounds like.

Zack

Nigel is technically an unregulated or unattached gold ranker too. There seem to be a few out there, just not common.

Michael Hawkins

Two reasons. First, it shows the events that are happening in the mountain are taking place at the same time Jason is speaking with Tera. Second, it allows shirt to skip the recap conversation, and pick up with Tera having been informed of the events and now we're seeing the relevant portion.

shabbybook

They are apart of the network with the reality cores i think, which means they arent going to include the wider network

Soli116

He doesn't want to be a despot. If you surround yourself with yes men, you lose track of your own faults and failings. Tara really is uniquely qualified for this. She was forcefully and unwilling taking from the cult. She's still not ok from the abuse under the kings or the abuse of the soul attack. She also won't let Jason get away with doing what he can without making him think about the ethics of it.

Soli116

Remy is probably still silver rank. Clive won't even have to work to take out whatever measures he thinks he put up. Sophie is fast, but she has no idea where this is, and might not even have been told.

Soli116

I think he and Shade will let him die, like he should have already. I know Shade would advocate for his soul going to the Reaper.

Mist Sparrow

Sophie was faster than the speed of sound at silver, she's now gold with a gold rankers memory, perception and aura range . a general direction and map would let her find a bunch of essence users pretty quickly, especially if they're fighting and using magic.

Derrick Snyder

I think the idea being explored here is: did the ends justify the means? Was the torture and loss of autonomy worth the freedom? She asks because she doesn't know either. She's looking for closure.

Ruth Ivimey-Cook

If your advisers always agree with you they are not very useful. Better advisers who will point out alternative paths and methods. Jason is trying to make sure he understands the consequences of actions (both his & others) and takes the "best" path, not just the one his emotions lead him to do. In other words, be a good leader.

Justin Butler

He's definitely Gold. He just portaled 3 Gold Rankers. But I still think Clive would scoff at anything he used.

Liy

I have to wonder if Tera didn't look like a cute teenage girl, would anyone care about her feelings on what happened? She was the aggressor, threatening Jason and everyone in the bunker, and his options were to let her kill people, beat her to a bloody death in front of witnesses, or force her to stop in a way that left her traumatized (oh no). I get that the messengers are also victims, but she's not a scared little girl. She's a war hardened killer. All this walking on eggshells around her is silly. Nobody cares about Gerling's current trauma because he was a monster. Tera was way more of a monster than Gerling. And Jason was trying to save her. She really needs to get over it.

Justin Butler

Gerlings Soul begging for release is an interesting situation. If Jason kills Gerling he is Helping him.

Ruth Ivimey-Cook

Remy ?must be gold rank too or his portal wouldn't work for the others we know are gold rankers.

Adrian

Tera didn't start life with any choices. She was an indoctrinated child slave for 18 years. Gerling... Not so much. Besides, this is way more about Jason telling the universe to go fuck itself than anything to do with Tera. It doesn't matter what she does, although her accepting freedom as a gift and passing the way to it along to others would be a happier conclusion for both her and Jason than the alternative

Aaron Schwartz

She’s asking if he’s sorry that he violated her soul. I’m pretty sure we’ve established by now that she would genuinely have rather that he killed her.

Aaron Schwartz

It occurred to me after I wrote this that what he had done is take one scene cut it in half and then put another one in the middle. Jason is so powerful that he’s breaking the fourth wall. It’s a conceptual sandwich.

Aaron Schwartz

what he has done is take one scene cut it in half and then put another one in the middle. Jason is so powerful that he’s breaking the fourth wall. It’s a conceptual sandwich.

Adrian

Much. With reincarnation on the table, the Reaper's indifference to life and shepherding of souls past those pesky life memories is divine benevolence by comparison to pretty much anything else. It makes mortality look like a blessing 😁

Gotrek65

I hope Tera Jun Casta can forgive him one day.

Albadia

I think this way overlooks every bit of nuance in the story. Tera was a slave, indoctrinated for decades with complete control over every aspect of her life. Gerling chose every fork he took on his road to power. That ALONE makes a difference. but beyond that we still easily recognize rules of war. We say it’s ok to kill your opponent, but not ok to kidnap them, torture them, experiment on them, use them for collective punishment etc. In this world that’s what Jason did rather than kill her.

S_Ally

Thank you for saying this! Her tantrum over freedom is stupid.

Kasper Lynderup Jensen

She was a brainwashed child soldier, not quite the same as a war hardened killer, but also not mutually exclusive. But your point that how people look have a large effect on how much empathy they get is also not wrong.

Liy

Indoctrination is not mind control. I was indoctrinated in a religion in the first decades of my life. I did and said things that I'm ashamed of now, but I always had a choice. Luckily was never convinced to hurt anyone, but it depends on the religion, I guess. If I had strapped on a suicide vest and someone had to hurt me to stop me? After breaking out of that indoctrination, I'd be thanking the person who acted. She's had how many years to deal with it but somehow Jason is the bad guy here.

NovaZero

What would be a wonderful twist is if Tera Jun Casta would be responsible for a large swathe of the Unorthodoxy ending up dead because her sense of individualized self-determination demanded it so.

Adrian

Not much satisfaction to be wrung out of the beat down of a completely outclassed soul puppet who spent the last 16 years in a series of rotting shells. I'll just be looking forward to Elizabeth failing to get the leverage she needs to force Jason's version of a compromis

NovaZero

Honestly, if Jason gave a thoughtful look and then just said "probably not" that would be both funnier and a much more honest answer. "You wanted to kill me. I didn't want to kill you. This is about me, not you. You, crazy lady, can go hang. Or go suicide if you feel that badly about it. You lost. I won." I'd respect this a great deal more lol because her choosing to live is a funny form of defiance from that enslaved point of view.

JayseKnyte

Yep, that's about how I thought it'd go.

LolGamez

Bruh you guys need to get a grip. He chose to torture her soul, as opposed to kill her. She's asking if he's sorry for torturing her soul

Mitha

Gerlings current state is also something the reaper very much dislikes. So the reaper and shade should both be happy when Gerling finally gets put down

Hunter

What Elizabeth is doing to his soul might be a reason why Jason doesn’t forgive her. He doesn’t F around when it comes to soul torture. But who knows he might think it’s interesting, but at this point he’s apathetic and would probably want to release gerling.

Mist Sparrow

No , if he's silver with a gold ability it stops at 1 gold ranker going through. Like what constance did for emir back in book 1 (might have been book 2?)

Caleb

Gerling might be able to come back. If his soul is released he would have his essence powers again. And his immortality power works even if he has no body and is only a soul. It might trigger if his blood clone body is destroyed and his souls is released. Bringing him back as a regular human. Since it seems like his soul is still unbreached even if it’s trapped.

Kristy Riedel

I don't think Jason is apathetic, he's just more measured. He cut off the system on Pali because slavery is wrong. He would kill Gerling to release him from slavery, and then kill him some more if he came back.

Kristy Riedel

It's not about Jason being the bad guy, it's about him always seeing the complexities that result from the exercise of power. He made a life choice for Tera out of a frustration over being forced by circumstance to kill someone he felt compassion for. He still feels bad over telling Zara to change her hair color, of course he's always going to feel responsible for forcing a change on Tera.

Kristy Riedel

Elizabeth and her friend are gold rank, so must Remy be in order to portal them.

Kristy Riedel

The difference is that Nigel did it through training and Marie did it by stealing monster cores from the network.

Mist Sparrow

I don't think Jason would let it get that far, it's all happening in his soul kingdom so he could just teleport her away if she gets too doomsday culty

Zachary Blevins

Absolutely She’s pretty so she gets the benefit of a doubt and if she had horns and tentacles, those people would’ve cheered him as he beat her to death

Liy

He "made a life choice" for the elite soldier who was trying to kill him and a bunker full of people? His other option was to try to kill her before she hurt someone. They were both bad options, but she is the whole reason he had to make one. I get that this whole arc is Jason struggling with potential abuse of power. He can still struggle with his limits. I don't think he did anything wrong with her, and the reason it feels wrong is because she's seems young and cute, and this triggers a protective response. If it had been an older looking guy instead, would Jason have even considered saving him? If he had, would we care about the killer's trauma? I doubt it.

Hell 5pawn

I wouldn't be surprised is Jason would view Elizabeth as a Vorger analogue and end up killing her over it.

Justin

Hey shirt any update on the graphic novels? Also we need a show, when’s that going to happen??

Soli116

Do you think they're meeting up with Sebastian, too?

Kristy Riedel

Yeah, it would be fun to hear about those adventurous messengers. I could totally see them having formed a cult that Jason would really like. They would be TV/movie/video game buffs and foodies.

Kristy Riedel

Yep, which is why it was a mistake when Emir and constance both went through a portal (made by Hester) after the event announcement.

Brandon Walker

He needs to grow up and say no, the felt no remorse forcing his hand and not giving him choices in his life when she trapped him in her power, why should he feel bad for not playing by her rules? If she didn't want to lose, she shouldn't have done it, and losing means you don't get to decide how it happens.

Brandon Walker

And everyone is saying no, why should he be, was she sorry for forcing him into that position? If not, why should he be sorry for not handling it the way she wanted? She took away HIS agency, and then is mad he didn't follow along with it, boohoo

Joshua Little

Thanks for the chapter.

Kade Ferree

Preciate ya shirt. Thanks for the chapter.

DreadHawk666 Aron

Thank you for the chapter 😁! I hope jack the undead ends up properly dead but it would be kinda funny if he became a voice of the will for Jason

Uri David Akavia

This whole scene is happening very fast, and the Network doesn't trust Jason Asano or his friends. If somebody was breaking into Fort Knox, the US wouldn't call in the British special forces to help until it was clear what was going on. Sure, we know the Network is a corrupt mess, but the people on the ground don't know it yet.

Josh

I actually don't think a show would do it justice, I think graphic novels, breaking the books into half maybe, would probably be the better option. Also, could you actually picture anyone other than Heath Miller doing Jason's voice?

Brad Gammey

Tera was the character whose circumstances pushed Jason to make "the world bend" instead of himself. His decision for sparing her was selfish in that regard, I'm addition to knowing what soul torture would be like. He still hates The Builder, so he accepts her hate. Regardless, that's the vehicle for this point of progression. If he had some dusty 70 year old looking man with a much ignorant zeal in the position where he made a decision, I think it would be the same situation, at least in his mind. To each reader, it's their own biases that color their perception.

Darren Williams

Wait, how does Gerling still have his essence powers? I thought essence users who became lesser vampires lost access to their essence abilities?

HonestAbe

She doesn't have a choice? She dies if she disobeys, her entire species is indoctrinated and used as slaves. She was born with a suicide vest on. The scale is not comparable at all. Hurt? She was tortured at a soul level, a pain that is incomprehensible to nearly everybody. Without access to an expert in soul trauma a neutral reaction to Jason is good progress done all by herself

HonestAbe

And jason would have helped if it was a dude, he done so before plenty times before, you sound really bitter about a fictional character which is weird

Daniel Wills

Weird vamp magic. He’s not a lesser vamp, his soul is chained inside some weird blood clone thing. And since his soul isn’t actually altered, still has powers.

Derrick Snyder

He did feel remorse though, doing what he did made him feel horrible to the point he refuses to do it again. Yes she didnt give him a choice, but thats not the point. The point is the loss of autonomy. There are rules in combat, that's why there's such a term as a war crime. There's a line you just don't cross. Is Forcibly entering her soul crossing that line? He basically soul raped her in order to free her. The question here is did the ends justify the means? It's stuff like this that make me love this series!

Justin

I mean an animated show not live action, that way heath could voice him and it would make it easier to show off the world and magic.

JennP

OK, tired of Tera acting like a victim. Jason didn't go to her home and attack her, she tried to kill him and had every intention of killing all the people in those bunkers afterwards. She would have enjoyed killing those families and children. I don't care how she came to be evil, Jason defended himself and others. He had no idea how to use his new astral powers but tried to find an alternative to killing her. He may regret the outcome but doesn't owe her anything. After all this time, and everything she's learned, she's still so utterly selfish.

Liy

I still think alive but suffering is better than dead. Jason went thru far worse than Tera, but nobody is saying he's better off dead, right? And just before he encountered Tera, he had no trouble killing messengers in battle. Suddenly he finds it so important to save this one? The only difference I can find is the detailed description of her appearance, because she's just as bloodthirsty as the others. And yes, she still had a choice. If the messengers couldn't choose, there would be no unorthodoxy. She showed no empathy in her attempts to slaughter. She chose violence happily. And she's had an adult mind for like 35 years now. This whole "poor Tera" attitude doesn't make any sense. She's the reason he had no good options. It doesn't matter how much it hurt her. He's not the bad guy here. I don't know why this triggered me other than maybe my own experience with breaking indoctrination. I rarely post anything. I'm gonna just blame my covid fever for this rant.

Liy

Comparing him to a rapist is extreme. Rape is inherently selfish, and reduces the victim to an object. The Builder's attack on Jason could compare. But with Jason and Tera, it's more like emergency surgery by a novice doctor that went wrong but still saved the patient. He was doing this entirely for her benefit. Would it have better for him to have put her down like a mad dog? I think Jason would have been less traumatized if he had, and Tera wouldn't be able to care.

David

The people on the ground know very well how corrupt the organization is. It’s one of those things they always apologize for before saying someone went rogue. No, they just went full Network. You never go full Network.

Derrick Snyder

Very good point. I agree the rape comparison is extreme. But if you think of things from Tera's perspective when she first woke up, Jason had been selfish (ill admit maybe not objecified) Weather or not he should have killed her is the big question. Putting her down could have been considered a mercy. Especially from her perspective upon waking up. She's struggling with it now, she has a different perspective but can't shake her initial feelings of being violated. She's asking Jason for help, but ultimately it's not about him. (For the record i think Jason did the right thing, and I ultimately think Jason does too)

Brandon Walker

Rape isn't even a bad comparison because it's extreme, its a bad comparison, because you are making him the unprompted aggressor, rather than the victim that defended themselves, the perpetrator of the actual attack doesn't get to play victim and whine that the victim didn't fight how the aggressor wanted them to

Brandon Walker

She didn't know she didn't have a choice, they aren't aware of the marks and control the kings have over them, if they did, the rebellion would be bigger, so that's not even a valid excuse, her whole character is they didn't have to exert control over her because she was so zealous anyways, and the aggressors circumstances don't matter to the victim of an attack, especially when that victims life is on the line, life is unfair, and that's horrible, but it still takes choices to get where she got, and the victims she attacks because of her situation can't be held responsible for her situation, or for not defending themselves how she would like

Brandon Walker

Who are the silvers attacking them if not people with some form of communication to Jason's group, or people who do have a line to them?

Mist Sparrow

They could be part of the geneva branch and also taking part in the reality core harvesting, with the 3 gold rankers stealing from them as an exit plan. That's the main reason I can think of for the geneva branch not calling for reinforcements. or it's a trap, but I don't think Jason would agree to a trap that involves sacrificing a bunch of silver rankers to Elizabeth

Derrick Snyder

I think the argument falls into the "responsibility of power" theme this series is exploring. When he made the decision he had all the power. She was no longer the agresser. He wasn't defending himself or even those around him. He was using her to defy the universe. Yes with good intentions, but she was no longer a threat. Would the jason from book 11 (when he spared the tree) have done the same thing? Probably, but I think this experience greatly influenced his later decisions and he's grown since. I understand other side of the argument though. She forced him into a hard decision, she shouldn't be upset that he found an answer she didn't like. The whole thing is one Grey area mess....which is great!

Brandon Walker

She was no longer the aggressor? Her power was still going to kill him if he didn't do anything, and she was still going to kill everyone else there after, how is that not the aggressor, or him defending himself? I don't really see any grey area, I get the themes, and personal struggles that are supposed to be portrayed, I, and many others, just don't buy it in this instance, he defended himself, and did it in a way that didn't force him to continue being the killer, and that made her upset, but if he can't be upset at her for her circumstances, there's no logical reason for her to be allowed to be mad at him for his circumstances, I actually get why she's upset, and damaged etc, even his part I can get, despite not agreeing with it, the part I really can't get, is the people trying to pretend we should feel bad for her, or that she is in any way a victim of Jason, and not just the astral kings, to include boris, Jason's team, his therapist, etc

Liy

She had him locked in a combat bubble with a self destruct count down. He could try to beat his resilient silver rank opponent to death with his fists and hope the timer didn't run out before it killed him or that she didn't cause anyone else harm. Or he could break into her soul and turn off the self destruct and save them both. She was absolutely still a threat here. Once he was inside (after the "torture" of breaking in), he took the extra step of freeing her when she didn't ask for it, and some might see that as crossing a line. I don't. She was a chained dog, and he broke her chains. I think the greater tragedy was later when a messenger consented to the soul trauma to be free and Jason was like, 'nah, sorry, you're better off dead'. He's like a surgeon afraid of using a scalpel because he got stabbed once.

Derrick Snyder

I'll have to read it again, it's been a while. I was under the impression that he could have killed her during the torture? I know he wondered if it would have been kinder while he was doing it but kept going with his plan regardless. Sorry if I'm incorrect, I only have it in audiobook, I'll listen again later tonight.

GentlemanG33k

Since we are talking about Messengers how many people know about his new species of Messenger breeding planet? I know he told Melody and the head of the Brighthearts I think that is all we know for sure

Brandon Walker

Even if he could have, those were his only two choices, if he didn't do one, and do it quick enough, he died, there is no world where having the power to kill him instantly isn't posing a threat anymore

Havics Child

She isn't a victim in that sense, but it was war. In a war you kill your enemies or take them prisoner. She is a victim of what amounts to him raping her soul, and taking away everything she believed in. She has all the right in the world to hate him for eternity.

Havics Child

Nah, no extra chances for him. He killed Jason's people, chained the ones who didn't die, then dragged them all into a pile so Jason would see what he did while he relaxed beer in hand. All that was just because he had a capture order on Jason and thought he was better than him. His orders didn't care about Jason's friends, all that was just spite.

Kenneth

Firstly, I want to be clear that the following is not an attempt to invalidate you dislike of Tera.  Her attitude is extremely annoying.  You don't need a reason to dislike her beyond that. Sometimes a character just rubs you the wrong way, even if their poor personality can be justified, they can still be annoying. But characters like her are WHY I love HWFWM so much.  The author takes the title seriously.  And boy does Shirt shove a whole lot of that quote into the story. And I could write a whole essay on how Shirt uses Tera to get that point across. Tera is the symbol of Jason's biggest fear.  He did to her what was done to him.  Even though it might have been the only option he had available, it's still commonly excepted as the worst thing any person could ever do to another. The fact that he can justify it doesn't help, because Jason knows all monsters are able justify their actions, at least to themselves.  Tera still struggling with what he did gives Shirt opportunities to force Jason to confront the fact that the road to hell is laced with food intentions, and sometimes the consequences of actions NEVER go away. Because the effects of Soul Torture don't fade.  Those scars sit in your aura, you feel them every second of every day.  Reminding you of what happened.  Jason STILL has issues with his own experience.  He's gotten the therapy to help him accept and adapt, but he still has those scars, poking away at him. Tera was the Messenger equivalent of a teenager(16 I think, then shirt moved it up to 18?) when it happened to her, and she learned her entire life and everything she knew about the universe was a lie at the same time.  This would be the real world analog: A teenager born into a violent, insane cult that attacked a town, and got sexually assaulted and then 'saved' from the cult by her assaulter. We wouldn't bat an eye if she never recover from all that, especially if she was forced to be in the presence(Soul + Aura) of her assaulter every minute during her recovery.  Teras situation was even more extreme than that, as soul trauma is WORSE then any real world trauma, So her still being messed up is completely understandable. As for her "deserving" what happens because she did bad things and likes it?  This is already getting embarrassingly long for a comment, but the children born into real nasty cults from the 70s and 80s are a decent argument in favor of her not being entirely at fault for her state of mind when she met Jason. TLDR; Getting tired of Tera based on her personality being annoying is justified.  But the fact she still HAS those personality issues makes sense given the context of her life and trauma.  And she is important to the overall theme of the story.

Havics Child

He had gained access to his abilities and she didn't, he could have and possibly should have just killed her. If you try to kill someone, being killed or captured are risk you accept. Having your soul tortured until you were broken, and being turned into something against your core beliefs, that would have your own people out for your blood is cruel. But he wanted to say no to fate. With the way he did it, it amounts to raping her soul and changing who she is against her will to the point she almost committed suicide.

Havics Child

Clive used dumpling soup to describe the astral for a reason. Everything in the cosmos is like some type of food. Jason even made a cake to describe the layers of reality.

Havics Child

Earth has tons of silvers now, it's no longer a limited thing, anyone who goes through a month of training with farahs methods has the potential to reach silver.

Mist Sparrow

I mean from the moral standpoint, Jason doesn't like people dying for this plans (unless it's himself)

Brandon Walker

That would be a good point, if you weren't talking about people who are trying to genocide a whole planet, and doing gross soul stuff of their own, or if it was a good point on its own, if you try to kill someone, you get whatever they give you, not within limits, if you can't handle that, don't try to kill someone

Brandon Walker

I do find it funny you are trying to argue that if you try murdering a whole planet of people, you should be able to expect them to follow whatever rules of engagement you think they should, while you get to follow your own separate set

Carl Gherardi

The network investigation team got lucky? Marie gets caught for unrelated fraud, and has to remove her more recently acquired reality cores from the work safe on short notice and got caught when her swipe card got revoked. The moral: Don't use office resources for personal use

ABTelford

I had the same thought/question. He’s a blood clone with his soul prisoner and essence powers come from tapping into the power of the soul so…I thought he only had Gold rank attributes and no powers

David

The rules of engagement comments are the craziest to me.

ShowBizGAL 1996

It might work if it were done like anime. I like the way they do anime, but most general animation these days stinks. Ghost in the Shell, for example, is GREAT anime, and tells a great story. :-D

David

Stand alone complex was so well done! 2045 was visually meh with a cool story idea and only a decent ending.

Justin

Have you seen solo leveling? I think they are doing a pretty good job with the adaptation

Attackins

Yeah, we've been told multiple times in this story that soul trauma is supposed to be something that literally transcends next to any trauma we can imagine, especially the specific kind of soul trauma that was done to both her and Jason. You're analogy was also pretty spot on. Her being a brainwashed teenager(16 or 18 doesn't matter, still a teenager) at the time is something that people seem to keep forgetting, and then having an assault that is per canon worse than what we can even imagine by the person who inevitably saved her life and brought her out of the cult. That really strikes the nail on the head of why she could obviously still be extremely bothered by Jason's mere presence, especially now that he is even more like the people who brainwashed her in the first place. Jason getting "over it" faster and better than her is also partially due to him being a grown adult when it happened(even if not much older than her), him having an amazing therapist and healer, and possibly his own transcendence giving him an altered view on life. I say "over it" as he still obviously has those scars and isn't truly over it, but he has obviously been able to work through it far better than her for the reasons I described above.

BeepBoop

There are a lot of good thoughts in the comments here. What I would add that I think is relevant is that she specifically and intentionally put Jason in a situation she thought was necessarily kill or be killed. She went the extra mile in that regard. If someone tries to force you to kill them or be killed yourself in the real world and somehow you find a way to get out of that without killing them which depends on making them experience absolutely terrible trauma and destroying their life up to that point then I think that fundamentally that is acceptable as nobody has the right to force someone to kill them. Still, if the reason that the person chose not to kill is because they considered killing to be a bad thing to do to someone then perhaps they could reasonably brought to question their judgement as to what is worse. If they did it simply because they were flailing out in protest of being forced into a confined position then their actions are understandable, but it is reasonable for them to fear what they can be pushed to do. Perhaps, on some broader moral scale what Jason did is terrible because he could have just killed her. Perhaps it is neutral or even slightly good. It is almost certainly not saintly though. As an isolated incident someone trying to force someone else to kill them and instead experiencing something terribly traumatic that leaves them with ongoing mental scares and destroys their life is not necessarily deserving of much sympathy. Things change a bit based on just how terrible that experience is and what brought them to this point in the first place. Tera is a victim herself, indoctrinated and abused by a militant cult. The exeprience she had was also apparently just about one of the worst possible. Thus I think there is room for plenty of sympathy for her, especially as the person she is now. As a final point, a lesson I consider generally important is that there is not room to expect people to behave by some dictates of appropriateness all the time when things deeply impact them. It is beautiful in the sense of imaginging a certain order, a perfection of a kind, to imagine everyone carefully reflecting on the state of affairs and their relation to it before carefully adjusting their emotional reaction and behavior such that people can perfectly fit all aspects of all their relationships together with no tension between the deep seated needs of the parties involved on both sides. Sadly, this is not even impractical, but impossible. It would be unhealthy to even try. Better to understand and work with their struggles whilst understanding and working with the struggles of others to the extent that one can avoid causing harm to each other than chisel oneself into an imagined perfect human who recognizes and acts on their precise moral status and resposnsibility to avoid even small issues.

BeepBoop

If I hold a gun to your head and make you hold a gun to my head and say to kill me or I will kill you and everyone around you would it be acceptable for you to instead forcefully drug me in a way that would be extremely traumatic if those were somehow the only options? I find the comments on war crimes and such interesting in so far as it can present a foundation to discuss what purpose such laws serve. One thing to consider is if in a scenario outside of war one someone found themselves in a situation where they only way to defend themself would be to do something that is not allowed on the battlefield (maybe something that would be considered illegal chemical warfare because one just so happened to have relevant chemicals nearby?). I think something can be learned considering such things. Another thing to consider is what status should be given to the act of forcing someone, in a war scenario, to kill or die in a much more rigid way than some general 'kill or be killed' scenario. The intential killing of civilians is obviously warcrime material, but what about the more fundamental act? On some level it doesn't seem like a big enough deal to warrant such special treatment, but I think all that would point out is just how terrible war is. We divide war actions into acceptable and unacceptable ones partially because it is just not practical politics to say that war is blanket unacceptable behavior in all cases unless one is strictly defending their home in every single moment. I would imagine that soul torture would, as a matter of law or honor, be made unacceptable in wars between all those who have some stability to their international order and recognize soul torture as a common enough capability. In such a case, what Jason did would almost certainly be considered illegal or dishonorable even with the extentuating circumstances because there is not room to be making exceptions when dealing with a system where one is trying to reining in many truly independent actors. An exception made would become precident for someone artificially putting themselves in an analogous position for nefarious purposes. Yet, do we really want our final evaluation of these people as people, rather than as soldiers, to be in this vein? Tera was already commiting and planning to commit plenty of acts that are good war crime candidates and her people do not consider the people they are fighting as having a status which warrants anything like honor or law holding back allowed actions in war. There are no accords between her people and the side Jason was fighting on as the messengers consider all others to be so inferior in capability and moral status for that to be unwarranted except against each other where they surely have their own internal rules. Is a war crime a war crime if there is no legal structure to define it as such that has authority relevant to the war at hand? If so are war crimes independent of all particular authorities? Why then are war crimes precisely the sort of thing they are? Why is war acceptable at all, ever?

Brandon Walker

One, Geneva conventions are only binding in so far as BOTH sides agree to follow them, two, you know who committed war crimes? Everyone fighting against Germany, you know who got charged for them? Germans, we absolutely make exceptions for special scenarios, even in normal laws, just like how murder is illegal, but you can get away with it in the right circumstances, and absolutely to your first question

BeepBoop

We don't know enough about her character now to know if she has any remorse towards her past victims. It would be good, in a moral sense, if she did, but she might not. Still, even if she did, even if she felt the weight of her sins, it would probably still be understandably hard for her to feel remorse for what she did to Jason in putting him under her duel power without that feeling being overwhelmed by the feelings of violation under his power when the tables turned. Soul trauma leaves far more of a mark, generally speaking. Part of an overall healthy perspective might be realizing that she put herself in a position where Jason had very few options available and she did not have to, even as a messenger soldier, but even decades may not be enough to overcome the most serious of trauma. My personal perspective is that Jason, in some basic sense, was entirely justified in mutilating her soul to turn off her power, questionably justified in forcibly removing the mark of her oppressor that she did not even know she had but that this has nothing to do with the method and is probably justifiable in a choatic environment when dealing with a still mysterious threat, and that Jason came to his actions from a point of view which does not do work in making them good. What I think does do work is his careful consideration of his actions after the fact and his desire to avoid being put in a position to ever do such things again. One doesn't have much time for careful moral consideration when they have a timer ticking down on their life and have unexpectedly lost much of their autonomy before suddenly regaining part of it and having to act quickly if they want to take advantage of it. I don't think it is reasonable to expect Tera to get over terrible trauma because she "deserved it" (I don't think that is possible anyway, it could be justified but that doesn't mean she could ever have deserved it) and it would be wrong to expect Jason to get over having forced terrible trauma upon someone just because it is justifiable. Why shouldn't Jason feel terrible about what he has done? It is not even clear that it would be better for him if he were to becoem the type of person who would not feel like that. He is a precariously balanced person in some respects and plenty of things that harm him also help keep him together. He also cannot simply discard what holds him back from certain questionable actions before these things are organically replaced by a healthy, experienced understanding of how to deal with things. He will gain that over time and with that it would be healthier to accept his past actions as in the past and not torture himself over them at all. Sadly, he is being repeatedly being thrust into things and feels the need to manage them as he has some involvement and the consequences could be dire. For Tera, we simply don't know enough about her latest developments to evaluate her mental circumstances. Still, I think some empathy for her as she is now is appropriate for all she has to go through even if she has done terrible things. Not that one has to feel anything for her. She does not deserve, has not somehow earned, it even with the fact that all messengers are also victims and her trauma. I would even go as far as to say that as one of her victims, even Jason who did this to her does not somehow owe her him feeling bad for what she had gone through. Yet, taking this an extra step and demanding her to no longer experience the effects of her trauma in her thoughts, feelings, and behavior is unwarranted.

Kristy Riedel

They will be elemental messengers, but we don't know what that will mean. Only the bright heart leaders know about them and they are currently sealed in the astral space attached to their city. We know that the mark of an astral king is a necessary part of messenger blooming, but we don't know if the messengers forming on that planet will develop without that. They also bloom with racial memories, which we don't know have been affected by their strange origin. It's a huge mystery looming way out in the future.

Kristy Riedel

This series is about Jason and his development. It is a human trait to more easily feel compassion for those similar to ourselves. The growth comes from learning to empathize with those who are different from us. Jason is going to live forever and come into contact with diverse beings whom he will have power over. Empathy for Tera was easy for him and only the beginning of him learning to apply it to those it is harder

Ninja Pugglesworth

Where do we know remey from? I don't feel like going back to look lol

Nea

Excellent work as always!

Chloe

Geneva in Geneva. Lol Tyftc

StarkRG

Flames of Redeeming Whatever modified vampirism doesn't lock out essence abilities. It's clear that only certain types of control cause the essence abilities to become unavailable.

Kconraw

Thx for the chapter

Tsorov

Is it really? We know that the Astral Kings say that it is unavoidable, and that they brand them before they are really born, meaning the messengers opened their souls to them out of instinct. I don't think that means that messengers can't be born without the mark, just that the Astral Kings never missed anybody.

Tierza Hitch

Wasn't Tera 7ft tall, not 9?