Peanuts, The Muppets, and sad songs. (Patreon)

I haven't written you in a while. Have you ever read Peanuts? It feels like a stupid question. But for years I had seen Peanuts comics, and I saw nothing for me.

There are so many Peanuts comics. 50 years of daily comic strips. Fifty YEARS. The same jokes are circled back around, and there is a lot of what feels like filler.

But then whenever I go back, after having lived a little more, something that once seemed like filler will hit me in the stomach.

I'm right in the middle of trauma therapy, which is confusing and very difficult, and I did not think I'd find myself or my confusion about CPT in Peanuts today. But there I am!

The Muppets has always felt this way for me, too.

You know when you're in love, and every song seems to be about you? Or when you've got a broken heart? There's a part of me that feels that way about "The Rainbow Connection."

For the first section of the song, the singer is outside looking in. "So we've been told, and some choose to believe it."

Some, but not "me." because "Me" is separate. "The lovers, the dreamers, and me. "

Separate.

"Who said that every wish would be heard and answered, when wished on the morning star. Somebody thought of that. And someone believed it."

It's like an admiration of optimism, from outside.

And that is a sad sort of beautiful on its own. But then the singer DOES find their place.

Have you been half asleep

And have you heard voices?

I've heard them calling my name

Is this the sweet sound

That calls the young sailors?

The voice might be one and the same

I've heard it too many times to ignore it

It's something that I'm supposed to be.

Sirens (or mermaids?) luring sailors to their reward. The sweet, beautiful promise of death. "I've heard it too many times to ignore it. It's something that I'm supposed to be." 

There are nights when I listen to The Muppet Movie soundtrack and feel less alone. "I've never been there, but I know the way."

This is coming out darker than I mean it to. It really does make me feel better. It helps to see these feelings in myself, and to be able to name them.

I hope you are well.

Joey