This house is ours - novel - Another suicide letter (Patreon)

I am going to kill myself.

Well.

As I write this, I am going to kill myself. When you finally read this letter, I will already be dead. So I have the tense wrong. Suicide letters aren't as simple as they sound.

I killed myself.

But you already know that. I am writing to tell you I'm dead, and you are probably in your funeral clothes. So, what is the point? Am I writing to tell you why? There will never be a "why" that makes sense to you.

And you are my children. You are smart and you listen to the world around you. You probably already know the how.

So, what, then? How about this: You are my children and I love you.

Well.

As I write this, you are my children and I love you.

You were my children, and I loved you.

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