Let's talk - Hannah (Patreon)

I love Hannah.

Not in a physical romantic way of course. But as a fictional character. I created her specifically to be an ideal: absolute perfection in my eyes. It's what got me started in  this whole 3d stuff to begin with: to simply create something that is my vision of perfection. A blonde, muscular blue eyed tanned girl. She's my Mary Sue that makes me ache when I'm forced to bring some flaws into her to make a interesting story. I love that she has two sisters who are equal bombshells. I love how she can go from sexy and seductive to mocking or ashamed. And look ridiculously hot while doing it.

Now that that's out of the way a question might arise to you: she's my favorite and dearest character, she features top and center in the Patreon and DeviantArt Banners and is the girl in each tier. Yet at the same time she's rarely seen in my content. Why is that?

The simple answer is: I love the character, I hate what I've done to her.

Ok, perhaps hate is a strong word to use. I like at least half of her storyline. And am content with the art of the last two, maybe three comics. 

And "the last two or three comics" will probably mean nothing to anyone as I've managed to make the storyline so convulated and confusing that I physically cringe when looking back at: and can barely make heads nor tails of it myself anymore. Next to that, when I started this, I went in head first with exploring my most favorite and dearest character without a single clue of character development, storylines, or even art. 

Every time I looked back at previous comics for some detail needed for the next comic I got this great desire to just scrap it all and start over again from nothing. Just to have (as we say in Dutch) my courage sink into my shoes from the staggering amount of work it'd take to sort it all out, remake large parts to make them look decent, and wrap it all up into a coherent comic series.

And then my HDD broke, got a lot of files corrupted, and had me waiting over a month for a company to salvage what could be salvaged. 

The comics were not among those files that could be salvaged.

At least not in its entirety: all the finished comics are gone from my hard drive (though easily retrievable through online backups like Patreon) including the files where all the text is in. The images without text have all survived and are now all much more securily backed up (and will be even more securily backed up once I get it in the cloud). Though this does mean I can't make any edits to the original comics without rebuilding the text from scratch. 

And quite frankly I'm happy for it. When I now look in my "Hannah's Comics" folder on my hard drive it's empty (save for the short stories). And it's almost like a breath of fresh air, a blank canvas (excuse my figurative speaking). 

I want to merge together all the good scraps and bits we have from the comics, remake it into a cohesive, sensible storyline that scraps all the nonsense my horny brain inserted into it without thought or sense. And make Hannah the postergirl of my Patreon and DeviantArt again, rather than a forgotten desire. 

Anyways I.. just wanted to get that off my chest. I'm currently rewriting the story (which was also lost in the corruption) and will get started on the art really soon. I hope to have the first fresh (though rehashed) comic done within a matter of weeks, but we'll see how it runs!

Thanks for reading my rambling so far, I apologise for it.