*sigh* (Patreon)

I know I promised to not check exist surveys anymore, but I clicked and took a peek without even scrolling, I see a lot of people leave and stop supporting my art and the reason is "the artist is not active as I expected"

honestly this makes me sad...

I know people have every right to leave. But it's just that I already feel guilty for not being able to update.

Physically I just can't update as often as I did before.

It's just... I can't provide daily excuses for reasons why I'm not active, because well, it's personal, I don't want to burden anyone by messing my trivial life stuff into art. but if you don't mind then I'm okay mentioning it.

Just a few years ago life seemed so careless for me. I could draw for enjoyment everything I want, do a lot of other things, even had hobbies and free time... but I don't know why my life got so busy and hard. And all of it is just issues and more things to do, routine boring things, like paying bills, searching for housing, assisting my family members with health issues, managing my own self-care and etc. It seems like life has become more difficult TT

I'm sure other people might face the same problems, that's why they prefer not to support my art here, not to waste their hard earned cash for nothing.

Looking on a bright light as a positive person I want to take a moment to say once again that I am very very deeply grateful for those who still remain here no matter what, you're like those people who forgive me for my faults and imperfections, I wish I could tell you how much it means to me 💜

P.S. I'll be right back soon

HL