Absurdly Depressing Dark Souls Rant (Patreon)

Holy crap. What the hell is this and what have I done? 

This is part 2 of my "Regular Dark Souls" lets play adventure, wherein i forego the horrifying character Babadook Spook to instead attempt making regular, normal commentary. In other words these videos are me trying to just be myself, if that's even possible anymore. The result is somehow even more horrifying and black and depressing than anything Babadook Spook himself could have come up with. Shit. 

The idea here is that it starts as a lets play and turns into an increasingly dark rant, eventually spiraling into more and more of a misanthropic nightmare. That's the bit that i ended up improvising, and it is a bit. I swear. 

I just want to make it clear that it was meant to be a bit, because it seemed so bleak that it was funny when i recorded it. Like the joke is supposed to be that it's so depressing it becomes darkly, absurdly hilarious. That's the bit. I know that's basically everything i've ever done, but listening to this back i worry that i've gotten way too good at it. 

I hope you see the humor in this evil monstrosity of a video that i saw in it when i was performing it. Otherwise you'll think I've finally snapped. I assure you, that's probably not totally true. Probably. Maybe. Fuck. 

In any case the part i'm most concerned about being taken seriously is all that "you" stuff. You know what i mean, "you people", as if i'm talking to the audience. "you people suck", "i hate you people". 

I've been doing that bit so long that i've sort of trained myself to fall back on it. It's not my favorite bit, and to be honest i outgrew it a long time ago. A lot of people have taken it seriously in the past and I hope that's not still the case. I don't hate my audience. I certainly don't hate you, my patrons, who I am in fact eternally grateful for. I just want to clarify because when i listen to myself falling back on that old "i hate you all" schtick i sort of cringe a little and i worry about it being taken seriously. 

I take pride in my comedy being "real" in the sense that it comes from a sincere place, and a lot of times there's some helly darkness in that place. I try to find a balance between speaking honestly about those feelings while also keeping it as self-aware and humorous as possible. Sometimes that means just going all out with it in a video and seeing how insanely dark it can get, if even to the point of absurdity. That's my favorite kind of humor, people being emotional and unhinged and losing their fucking minds. 

Taken in that way, I like this video, and i think the punchline it builds to is a good one. I just didn't want to release it and have people be turned off by it. Hopefully by now i've built it up so much that it will actually seem underwhelming compared to what you imagined it to be from this description. 

Enjoy. 

Or tremble in horror. 

Either reaction is appropriate.