Anxious Attachment (Patreon)

I get nervous when someone doesn’t answer 

I get nervous I did something wrong 

I get nervous I am losing them 

Losing their friendship 

Losing their love 

I read into everything too much 

I get in my head about it for hours 

For days 

Worrying the vibe has changed

Worrying he found someone else

I get scared I’ll be alone 

Really alone 

Like I was growing up 

I just wanted to be loved 

I just wanted to be someone’s person 

Their favorite person 

I just wanted to know what that felt like 

I don’t mean to get anxious 

I don’t mean to get sad 

I don’t mean to overthink 

I don’t mean to make things overwhelming or confusing at times

I’m just scared to be abandoned 

I don’t want to be this way 

I don’t want to compare you to them 

I don’t want to think your anything like anyone else

Maybe you are different 

Maybe you are easy going 

Easy 

Safe 

But I’m so scared I’m wrong 

I don’t know what to do 

I can’t keep doing this 

I just wanted you and I to be an us 

I just want you 

For once 

I wish I was also someone’s top choice 

Maybe I’m delusional 

But I thought that love was here 

I thought maybe we could grow 

I don’t want to lose you

But I also hate being this way.

It’s been a long time

You would think your body would forget such things

But it doesn’t

It brings you right back to the trenches

It fucks with you

Till you can’t breathe

Till you’re self sabotaging

Till you’re alone again