Dear love, (Patreon)

I’m sorry for how he hurt me 

Because now I am guarded from you 

I’m sorry he made me grow thick skin 

Because now I wear armor protecting my heart 

I’m sorry he hit me 

Because now I don’t feel safe from anyone 

I’m sorry he lied to me 

Because now I automatically assume you’re bullshitting me 

I’m sorry he cheated on me 

Because now I can’t trust anyone to remain loyal 

I’m sorry I have ptsd and attachment issues

Because now you will have to reassure and protect me 

I’m sorry if any of this feels like a burden 

Because I never wanted to be a project for anyone 

I’m sorrry just please be patient with me 

Because I know you are not him.